These are the things I have abandoned

16 Aug

This year, I have steadily abandoned more and more of the things I once thought I could not live without.

Last week, I pretty much let go of the last vestiges of what I used to consider essential to my sense of self. They are, in no particular order:

A home of my own. (What for? I’ll only sleep there, and my parents and grandmother are better off with having me around.)

A car of my own. (I can manage without owning one.)

A job. (I’ve been freelancing for more than 18 months and I can manage, despite being really bad at invoicing.)

A relationship. (Never again.)

Purpose. (There isn’t any. I can help people, but there’s no overarching narrative.)

The idea of a future. (Holding onto this was only making me miserable.)

It’s sad, but also quite zen, and I’m getting used to it. 

I’ll keep you posted. 




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